Well I'm finally in a class where I am doing things that I actually care about, mostly. You see I'm in a Preproduction Class and we are putting together storyboards and other things like Key Images and set pieces, and things like that. I like this kind of thing, this is why I wanted to go into animation in the first place, just under the assumption that I'd be working on my own material eventually. So I want to stay dedicated to my school work, but I'm easily distracted. Well on top of everything, I'm quite busy with these things. To put it bluntly, I'm employed, but not being paid. Like an intern. And I'm working on a team for the first time in a field where I care. This is going to be hard for me. Communication isn't my strong suit. And I've had to give my Skype address to a pair of strangers and I'm not that fond of that but it is necessary for the assignment, it is to big to only talk through on the work day of class. I have mixed feelings about this, but I am determined to stay diligent on my work.
What all that means is that I'm not sure how much I'll talk to everyone right now. I have some hanging RPs I haven't answered yet and I don't know when I'll get to them. I have some people I only talk to on here, but I don't know when I'll answer you. I'm really intent on making this work and being dedicated to the work at hand. I'm at a point I can move on to try and become what I always wanted to in life, and I really don't want to screw classes like this one up. On the one hand I'm excited inspite the fact I'm doing someone else's work, that is just the nature of the business. On the other hand, I'm scared just a little. The closer I get the reality of my dream, the more I feel like something is going to go wrong or that I'll learn I can't hack it or that it won't be the kind of thing I wanted to do and if I don't do this then I don't know what to do with myself. So I'm going to be pretty buried in school work for a while. I want to do good here, and so I'm going to give it the majority of my focus. I almost have to. So if anyone has standing conversations with me and I seem to be ignoring them, I'm sorry. But I will stay in contact to some form of dedication. I don't want this to mean "Don't talk to me". I just want to tell everyone why I'm so slow getting back sometimes. This is big for me. I don't want to screw it up.